This little light of mine…

I am so tired and worn out from the last few weeks that I would be lucky if I could put two words together let alone write a full sentence (smile).  So instead of writing a post, I thought I’d share this with you:



You are not meant for hiding.  I love that.  Invites you out of the shadows and into the light of his love.  Wow!  Don’t let anyone force you back into those shadows.  You are loved.  Live in that love and be all that He has created you to be.  I couldn’t help but think of the song we used to sing in Sunday school…

This little light of mine.  I’m gonna let it shine…Hide it under a bushel – NO! I’m gonna let it shine…

Let your light shine.  And love each other….because love matters.



To me, there is nothing scarier than teaching a teenager how to drive.  It was so nerve-wracking being in the car with my kids when they were learning.  Since my husband worked a lot of hours, it was mostly up to me to get the necessary 60 hours of driving completed so they could go from learner’s permit to driver’s license.screaming mom This picture had the caption “parents will blurt out warnings constantly as you try to drive.”  That was not the case for me.  I couldn’t get my words out.  It was more like I was speaking in tongues.  In my mind, I would be saying, “Watch out for that car!  You’re too close to the mailbox!  Stop!” Instead what would actually come out of my mouth was something like, “Codswallop flummadiddle!” It was terrible…and scary! One day, my son asked me to take him out on the highway.  It was before his lesson with his driving instructor and he was really nervous about going on the highway for the first time with a stranger.  I agreed to help calm his nerves and we hopped in the car.  As he was getting ready to merge into heavy traffic, I reminded him to look over his shoulder to see if it was clear. He did so with such enthusiasm that he banged his head on the window…really hard.  I thought for sure he knocked himself out!  Luckily he was ok and we survived the outing.  Oh the joys of parenthood!

It’s hard when someone else is in control.  I can’t tell you how many times I pumped a brake that didn’t exist (smile). While teaching my kids how to drive, I wasn’t in control of the car.  I didn’t like that.  I can say the same about life in general. There are times things happen that we just can’t control.  It’s easy to say, “God is in control.” But it is completely different living it out.  I’ve needed this reminder lately:God is already there Thank goodness!  Sometimes I just need to let go of the control.  It’s easy for it to sneak up on me.  I try to “figure things out” before I even know I’m doing it.  I feel so much better when I turn to God and tell Him that I trust Him to do what is best for me.  Believe me though, there are a lot of questions in that at times.  For instance, having an illness for 20 years with no answers is tough.  It can really drive me crazy sometimes.  If I think about my future, it is hard not to get depressed about it.  20 years is a long time to deal with something.  What if it never goes away??  Sometimes it just takes a leap of faith.  I love that saying.  When I think of the word leap, I just think of completely letting go and taking a big jump (In my mind it’s an elegant jump – smile).  Faith…firm belief in something for which there is no proof.  Leap of Faith.  We aren’t always going to know the answers…but we can look to the One who does.  It’s not always going to be easy.  Sometimes it will seem impossible.  But there is freedom in taking that leap.  Even if we don’t get the answer that we want.

leaping fish

While you are at it…leap into some love…because love matters.

Stop the ride!!!

When I was a little kid, I didn’t like amusement park rides.  I tried so hard to like them, but to no avail. maxresdefault Time after time my friends would drag me there and bug me endlessly to get on a ride with them.  Every time that I did, I was always reminded why I didn’t want to get on in the first place. The entire ride my face would look something like this poor lady (smile).  I didn’t realize it back then, but part of my problem is that the rides mess with my equilibrium.  Let me tell you…that is not a good feeling.

woman with sunglassesMy family and I have gone on vacations with friends that have included amusement parks. Everyone is always excited to get on the biggest and fastest roller coasters.  It’s not my number one choice for vacations, but I do enjoy watching them have fun.  And I do play an important role.  Picture the woman with the sunglasses with several purses, backpacks, and cell phones, and that is a picture of me.  The holder of stuff.  Without fail, they usually come off the ride and proceed to tell me that their eyes were watering, and snot was coming out of their noses.  And then they exclaim, “It was awesome!”  Really?  This is people’s idea of fun??  Call me crazy, but I don’t get it (smile).

emotional-roller-coasterLately I’ve been feeling like life has me on a roller coaster.  I hate the ride.  I want to get off of the ride.  And just when I think the ride is over…the roller coaster starts up for another round and I have to go again.  There are tears (and snot because of those tears – smile), and I think to myself, “this isn’t awesome and it isn’t fun.”  When my kids get on a roller coaster, one of the things that worries me is that the ride will break and they will get stuck at the highest point of the coaster.  And that is how I’ve been feeling.  Stuck. Focused on the fact that I hate the ride. Focused on the fact that there isn’t anything in my power I can do at the moment to stop the ride.  It’s awful…and dare I say unfair (smile)?  I realized I’ve been looking at this all wrong.  I need to focus on the One that keeps me securely fastened in the ride.  The One who is in control of the ride and protects me.  I’ve been here with Him before. He knows the big dips, sharp turns, upside down twists, and He keeps me safe the whole time. He provides the security that I need and I need to trust in Him.  After all, I know the ride won’t last forever.  And I know that at the end, I will be a stronger person because of it.

Matthew 6:25-34

25 “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

31 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33 Seek the Kingdom of God[a] above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

I might not love rides (smile)…but I do love God and the people He’s created…and love matters.

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