I shouldn’t be allowed on here today…

So I googled the word frustrated tonight and this is one of the pictures I found:


I have to admit…it made me feel a little bit better.  Look at that face!  I had a post all ready to go for today.  I wrote it yesterday.  I usually pray before, during, and after a post before I actually “publish” it.  I finished it pretty late last night and wanted to sleep on it before posting it today.  I got sidetracked this morning by an article someone posted about the church and gay people.  There were a slew of comments after the article.  I have to tell you…reading those comments I was ashamed to call myself a Christian.  I couldn’t stop thinking about it…and it made my heart heavy.

There is nothing wrong with having a strong opinion.  There is nothing wrong with standing up for what you believe in and being very passionate about it.  It is, however, wrong to tear other people down when discussing your stance on something.  The name calling and strong language is just wrong.  The funny thing is that the people who have the strongest opinions assume a lot (you can tell by what they say) and they really have NO CLUE what they are talking about.

When I read posts like I did today, it always makes me question if I’m doing the right thing by having this blog.  Is this really what God wants me to do?  Did I hear Him right?  Will it ever really make a difference?  As I was pondering these questions, God showed me these verses (in the translation that I have listed):

1 Timothy 1:12 – New American Standard Bible (NASB)

12 I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has strengthened me, because He considered me faithful, putting me into service,

Zephaniah 3:17 – New International Version (NIV)

17 The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”

Thank you for the reminders Lord.  This was the verse He led me to before I started the blog:

1 Corinthians 16:13-14 – The Message (MSG)

13-14 Keep your eyes open, hold tight to your convictions, give it all you’ve got, be resolute, and love without stopping.

As the Tenth Avenue North song says…”Empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you”

I’m going to keep on keeping on….

Love each other…you know why (smile)

11 thoughts on “I shouldn’t be allowed on here today…

  1. You are absolutely doing the right thing Lesa! It may not be easy, but I admire you for doing it. And no one has the right to judge others other than God himself.

  2. Comments like the ones you read today ARE THE REASON your blog is so important! We have been steeped in this war for far too long… this Gays vs Christians war. And the voices are so loud. But, yours is full of grace and beauty and love and humility. And that is a voice that is so desperately needed in this conversation. In fact, it might be the only way the *war* can become a *conversation.*

    I heard several messages preached on the topic of homosexuality last year — sermons that made me feel literally sick… words that filled me with ache and sorrow over our lonely brokenness as a church, over our anger and pride and ignorance and condemnation. But, as I have ached and prayed over the people caught in the middle of “the issue,” I have found such hope in courageous and grace-filled voices like yours. And Justin Lee’s. And Shane Windmeyer’s friendship with Dan Cathy. And Alan Chambers’s apology at the end of Exodus International. You are not alone. I believe the voices will continue to raise… until the quiet whispers become a gentle roar… of healing and reconciliation and mercy.

    Really, really… I praise God for your voice in this mess. And I’m so sorry for all the hurt and all the unknowing (or knowing) painful jabs and blows you’ve endured. You are loved. Your beautiful son is loved… before either of you ever took a breath.

    May God strengthen and encourage you. May His Spirit breathe life and healing into the aching parts of your soul. And on the days when the burden is just too heavy to carry, know that there are many of us who are ready and willing to climb into the trenches with you… and weep with you… and bear the weight with you. I am on my knees for you.

  3. Lesa,
    Thank you for stepping out with this blog. Our son told us 7 years ago that he is gay. Where does a parent turn in times like that? Obviously I turned to God but felt at that time that there was no one in my daily realm to talk with. We were in such pain for a long time. It lightened my burden so much when I finally shared with some friends and they didn’t turn away from me. We love our son and have a very good relationship with him. Does it still hurt? Yes. But God continually is with us and has helped us grow through this. I still don’t personally know anyone who has a child who is gay and look forward to your blog posts.

    • Thanks for your comment Joyce. My heart goes out to you as I know this is a difficult journey. Thank you for not abandoning your son (you’d be surprised how many do). I’m so glad that you have supportive friends. If you would ever like to talk to someone who has been on the same journey, please don’t hesitate to contact me via my contact page. I would love to chat with you. Blessings to you and your family.

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